My journey through miscarriage

You see this picture and you think. Wow. Her life is perfect!!! She works out everyday and is always so positive and happy. You do not see the pain & worry that was going on inside my head. You don't know that just hours before this photo was taken I was crying in an ultrasound studio because my 8 week old baby wasn't there.

Are you lost yet? Yes. Last October we found out we were going to be adding #5 to our family and on this day, we were going to be taking an announcement photo. Not sure what exactly was going on inside my body I decided to not take those pictures.

For a while I couldn't look at these family photos without feeling sadness, but now this picture is perfect to me because even amongst the sadness there was a little bit of hope that maybe everything was going to be ok. That even if it wasn't going to be ok , these 5 people meant the world to me and helped me get lost in that moment. It has taken a while for me to be open to sharing this, mostly because I've been trying to deal with the pain.  As our due date approaches (June 26th) I want to share with you bits and pieces of my miscarriage journey in hopes to spread awareness. Please know, this isn't easy for me. I feel very vulnerable, but God has put it on my heart. ❤️

Did you know that 1 in 3 women have had a miscarriage? Too many women are expected to just get over it. When truly there is a hole in their heart that can't be repaired. I don't really know the right words that can be said but I do know with time, the pain does fade. Personally, I had to take control fast, I couldn't let myself stay down for long because I was spiraling.

I don't need sympathy and don't worry about me...I'm doing ok. I just want to help other mamas who have been in my shoes. I know there are many moms who feel alone just like I did during this time, please know you aren't alone and it's Ok to talk about it.

✨ If God brings you to it, he will bring you through it. ✨

Stay tuned for more of my journey to healing......